Monday Mashup
Today I emerge from the other side of what has been the worst weekend of my life. Words cannot capture the imperial level of suckage that loomed over my spirit like a wet blanket dripping of coyote urine. The good news is that I'm still alive, so the weekend was not as bad as it could have been. I have another day, which is another chance to improve and savor this human experience rather than lament in temporary turmoil. Honestly, the weekend wasn't all doom and gloom -- so I've rounded up the highlights so I can compartmentalize all the events and move forward:
INTERNAL CHALLENGE
I've been led to believe I was the $#*% most of my life because of my creative abilities -- but my biggest fear is sucking at being a husband. There's more to it than paying bills, fixing the sink and buying flowers for no reason. I'm having a hard time defining "success" in that space because, what works in my creative space (i.e., music, writing, etc.), doesn't translate well. There's so much work that goes into being a husband and I misled myself into believing that, my years of beguiling women, prepared me to transition into marriage effortlessly.
THE WEBCOMIC
Before there was music, my childhood dream was to become a cartoonist. In finding a way to process the death of my dog, I've decided to immortalize him in a webcomic. I still have the drawing chops and my technical skills are up to par, so I hope this evolves into something funny and therapeutic.
THE DEATH of FACEBOOK
My use of Facebook was dwindled more and more over the past few months -- it's at a point where I see no point in it. I've connected with old friends and maintained positive interactions with new ones; but Facebook doesn't do it for me anymore. I can't afford the distraction nor am I interested in connecting with people everyday about everything. I have my outlets and they have been effective long before Facebook came along. It's time to simplify.
CONSUMPTION
If it doesn't feed my spirit (i.e.,scriptures/devotionals, family time, encouraging words, writing music, etc.), my body (e.g., working out, eating better, getting proper rest) or wallet (i.e., work contracts that generate income). . . I don't have time for it in my life. That's self explanatory.
I MISS THE FAVECAST
It's not feasible to go back to a weekly schedule, but I miss producing the Friday Favecast regularly. Last week's FFC was hilarious and healing for me and I know I've been a conduit of encouragement to others through it. I think it's just withdrawal and it'll pass.
GETTING IN THE GROOV(MNT)
There is so much greatness waiting for this website and I know it won't happen solely from my efforts. I think GROOVMNT is in an incubation period and I need to stop being impatient on its impact. Everyone involved is busy/stressed/tired, but I believe the golden era of GROOVMNT is on the horizon.
I STILL DON'T WANT AN iPAD
And while I was once 100% certain I didn't want one, that assuredness has decreased to about 75%. I've been listening to podcasts and watching YouTube clips that make a remote decent case why my possession of the hottest gadget of the year may not be a bad thing. We'll see.
