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More Than Lemonade

I’m halfway there. For the past 48 hours, I have felt the sludge of toxins loosening from my insides and, to my fault, I have not given my body the catalyst to expedite their release. In other words, I need to drink more water. . . a lot more.

I don’t feel good and my body feels like compressed energy begging to press through a collage of bad energy. Insomnia has returned, yet I haven’t used my sleeplessness for my personal productivity. Instead of contributing to my new novel or composing music, I’m watching Doctor Who and playing Uno on Facebook — I don’t have the energy to do much else.

The good news is this is Day Five and while my body continues to revolt, the TRUE battle of psychological and spiritual understanding is becoming remotely clear. This process has been more about my mind triggering habits I’m seeking to break. I started this journey to allow my neglected hunger to serve as an almost hourly reminder that I need change in my life. I need to strengthen my spiritual relationship and my self awareness. I need to go back to better habits, healthier communications and increased focus.

This is more than lemonade, salt water and laxative tea.

Until next time.